| Holy shit... haven't been on this fucking thing in forever.
all i do is myspace anymore. lol
thats pretty much my life. school. home. kendra's. myspace. work. mall. yupp thats it.
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| SHE'S AMAZING
Lauryn Starzinski
when she kises your lips,
it like being lost in an amazing dream,
one touch form her and yor in love,
and when she calls my name,
my heart melts,
the way she looks at me when she wants something
but doesnt want to ask,
it's the cutest little face i've ever seen.
When I say "I love you."
she says it back and i believe her,
thinking she'll never break my heart...
and the way she wraps her arms aorund me,
I pray she never lets go.
she's beautiful in every way,
It's amazing how hard
I could possibly fall,
for a girl who doesnt love me at all...
yeah
it really is amazing and honestly... we're not getting back together so
as far as im concerned it doesnt matter anymore... Fuck being depressed
over the only person i was actually ever in love with... right easy to
say huh? fuck throwing away a 5 month relationship becasue some guy
came into her life and stole her heart away from me.. well it's cool..
yeah see i can say it... can i do it... not sure yet... need someone to
take my mind off of her... she seemed to move on real quick so if she
really loved me like she said then maybe i can move on just as
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Punched my wall because people are asswholes!!!
Current mood:  depressed
damn long fucking story and not going to explain the whole ebtire thing but basically...
Me
and Mike got into a huge fight becasue Brittany told me that the only
reason hes even with me is becasue he cant have her becasue she's with
jakar and i flipped... so then we talked about everything we made up he
said "I love you." I didnt say it back but i believed pretty ,much
every word he said when he told me he had no more feelings for her and
that he wants me and he loves me and he doesnt wanna lose me ever...
so
he leaves and i go talk to brittany and she's balling her eyes out
saying mike told her like an hour before we started fighting that he
wants her to break up with jakar face to face and when she does he's
gonna leave me for her... so i start crying... i fucking broke down and
lost it... so brittany told me that i cant be with him and shes never
gonna talk to him ever ahain and all this shit... like i told him
getting into the relationship that i didnt wanna get hurt and i was
scared he would lie and cheat on me like everyone else and he promiesed
he wouldnt.. so i believed him like an idiot..
so he came to
brittanys today and i wrote him this 3 page letter saying basically
that hes an asswhole and i know about brittnay and i couldnt belive it
and all this other shit and he flipped saying you got me pissed to the
point where if you were a guy i'd fucking hit you right now and i was
like go ahead i dare you to lay a hand on me!!! and he was like no fuck
that im gonna get my sister to beat ur ass and i was like yeah... ok do
it then.
I'll slit his sisters fucking throat if she comes near
me and i guarantee if she does my fucking brother will put a bullet
right through his big ass fucking head...
so then hes like im
leaving and Brittany was like "no mike stay!!!" and i got pissed and i
was like im leavign and she was like "okay"
so i got home
balling my eyes out i was shaking so bad i punched two holes in my wall
and then called brittany and i was like yeah what happened to "im never
talking to him again becasue he hurt you and me and i hate him..." and
she wa slike what..? I wanted him to stay... and i was like fucking
hyocrit... i think she only told me that so that we would break up
because i bet you anything if he asks her back out... she'll say yes
and ill knock her the fuck out!!! she stabbed me in the back by letting
me get hurt and still wanting to be with him after she swore she'd
never talk to him again.... fuck ehr and him... im done... im not sure
if im gonna take kendra's advice and leave Brittany or just not go
around for a while and see how things go..
AHH!!! fuck this im pissed 
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| | BaBySiTtInG | | babysitting my mom's friend's kid... bored as shit... but i just got a pack of newports so im good. brittany was supposed to come with me but she's being a bitch... grr... im here until like 5 - 6 tonight!!!! and its like 12 now... damn its gonna be a long day. |
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bouncy
me and the lovely K - endra!!!
and you so wanna be us!
cause we're cool as hell!
Yes that would be me... (dont ask what i was doing)
Me ... (again)
kindof blurry...
I'm ugly....
I was depressed that day....